I WANT TO CRY!!!

      These days I really want to just let my tears flow out. Holding these emotions back is so hard. But I can't express my true feelings in front of other people or else I might seem weak. Crying is the most important thing to a person because this action isn't easy to do. When you cry it means that your sad about something and as the tears run out of your eyes, it can make you feel better. I really want to cry these days........................................the reason is............................................

SCHOOL IS SO HARD!!!! I've been sleeping so late this week and my dark circles are getting worse by the second. There is just too much homework that I have to end up using my lunch period to do them. Also I've been doing homework in other classes. How can there be so much stress in a high school students life? Another thing is my gym class...oh...it is a pain in my butt...literally my butt hurts...a lot as well as my arms, legs, fingers, toes, neck, head and back. Even the little hairs on my body hurts. Those places have been hurting since Tuesday because my teacher is crazy. In school, I am taking aerobics in replacement of regular gym. I never wanted aerobics, I signed up for dance and this is what I get... UGGGGHHHHH!!!
      I also want to cry because my sister is replaying this K-POP song called Hello by Nu'est. OK...I am complaining about this not because I don't like K-POP. It's because the song sounds so...I can't find the words to describe it. Before my sister had the song she was singing it and it sounded better than when the actual group was singing. This is what I said to her when she played it over he phone:
*my sister downloads the song Hello*
*she plays it really loud*
Me: WHAT IS THAT???
Sister: Ohh...it's the song Hello by Nu'est...
Me: You mean that song you were singing for the past three days???
Sister: Yeah...
Me. OMG!!! I can't believe  am saying this but...you sound better singing it than the group Nu'est.

*sister stares at me with a blank expression*
Me: I am being serious...I think you sound better when singing it because the background music isn't playing...the melody sounds...blehh...
Sister: REALLY??? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
      Another thing I wanna cry about is...this is a stupid issue but...it really bothers me...so this person wrote on their blog about the Korean drama Flower Boy Next Door...and it turns out...my sister is watching that drama also...this really bothers me because my sister and the person have so much in common, they like to annoy me until my last breathe.

      OK...that's all I have to cry about for now so until next time...

Fifteen

     If you read my previous blog today is my birthday and I am turning 15...Yah!!! The big ONE, FIVE. El grande uno y cinco. As Victor would say I am one year older and one year closer to my death. But now is not the time to think about sad things. It's time for happy thoughts. This summer I want to find a job. The only reason I want to get a job is because there are so many thinks I wanna buy. On Amazon, I have 12 things on my wish list. One of them is a guitar. I really want a guitar but my parents won't buy me one. They say I have to use my own money. So this summer I will get a job and I will buy my own guitar. Oh... and if your wondering the rest of the stuff on my wish list is all personal items that I really want. And the total is $315.78. Can someone lend me that money so I can buy those things? Never mind I am just kidding.
      Another thing about turning fifteen is my little sister wants to since the song Fifteen by Taylor Swift to me. The only lyrics she knows in that song is:

Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

Before my sister sang this to me as I was getting closer to fifteen, I loved this song so much. But then she ruined it for me. So right now I don't hate this song but I don't like it as much as I did. As I write right now, she is singing this song to me...SO MOLESTAR!!! 

So congratulations to myself I made it to fifteen.

My Birthday!!! (Quick Write)

Today tis' my birthday and it was stupendous... My closest friends gave me a birthday gift and it was very thoughtful of you guys. The present were deliver via person or via personally. I really liked all the presents. Here are some pics of what I received:

My Great Friend Victors Gift:

My Best&Close Friend Vanessa's Gift:

Lila And Her Friends Gift:

     Message to Victor: Thank You for your present I really like it......but ARE YOU TRYING TO GIVE ME DIABETES?????? Anyway thanks, it was really thoughtful...and I read the letter and WOW... I wonder...Does it have to be my birthday for you to say something nice?

      Message to Vanessa: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BUYING ME A PRESENT. IT IS SO FLUFFY!!!! I'M GOING TO HUG IT TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT BECAUSE IT IS SO FLUFFY AND SOFT AND CUDDLY!!!!! But it was very nice of you to give me a present...even though it was directly but... It is the best!!! You are the BEST-EST FRIEND EVER!!!!! ITS SO FLUFFY!!!
PS to Vanessa: With you in my life it is hard not to smile everyday :)      <3

      Message to my sister, Lila: Wow, you actually got me a present this year that wasn't meant for someone else. Thank You so much!!! And I hope this present didn't drain your wallet {even though the present I get you for your birthday empties my bank}

Also thanks to all the people who wished me a happy birthday today!!!!

My Thoughts Of The Week

      Hey people out there! This post will be about my thoughts of the week. These thoughts will include stuff I don't understand and can'y process through my mind. I intend on doing one every week because it seems like I have a lot of thoughts going around in my head after a week of school. All righty then, time to get started:
      My first thought I'd like to write about in the argument between me and my mom. So, my parents decided to send me to Saturday school because they think I am not smart enough and they don't want me to stay home and bother them. About 10 mins ago, I had this really, really, really loud argument with my mom. She asks me if I finish my Saturday school homework. I said yes, but she didn't believe me. She though I was making things up. So I told her I took my homework to school and worked on it during my lunch period. Then the yelling starts: She OVERREACTED and said I should be concentrated on my school work at school and not my Saturday school work. I know I should be doing that but, I was doing it during my lunch period not in the middle of class. I have lunch really early so I barely have any school work to do. And my mom tells me that I should waste my spare time on stupid things like goofing off. So I do my Saturday school work, and this is how she reacts. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!! CAN SOMEONE OUT THERE EXPLAIN TO ME THE LOGIC IN THAT??? ANYONE??? PLEASE!!! I NEED TO UNDERSTAND.
      The second thought I have is on my Geometry teacher at school. She is this old lady and she is really nice to everyone. But when I enter her class during the second semester, she gives the class a supply list. One of the things on the list was a scientific calculator. So, I asked her if a graphing calculator was OK, and she said no. She said that if I brought in a graphing calculator I couldn't use it. I thought in my head, WHAT IS THE PROBLEM WITH USING A GRAPHING CALCULATOR??? I mean, on the graphing calculator there  is also scientific calculator options on it. So that means I have to go buy a scientific calculator. I don't want to spend my money on something I am probably going to use for half a year. But the only problem with that is, my Geometry teachers says you can't use a graphing calculate for the Regents. Oh well, I guess I have to go get a scientific calculator.
      I guess that is all for this week. Maybe next week I'll have something to write or I am just too lazy to write it. OK. That's enough for now, GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!!!

Waking Up From A Dream...

      Has this ever happened to you...your having a nice dream and all of a sudden something wakes you up and you try to fall back asleep to try to continue you dream but you can't. That has happened to me so many times. I really hate it when that happens because I was having a dream about something good...I don't want it to end. This happens mostly on weekends when I sleep until the afternoon. I only do that on the weekends so nothing interrupts my sweet dreams. Whenever I have a bad dream and I don't want the story to continue I fall back asleep and the bad dream comes again. Why is the world so cruel to me??? I just want it to happen once where I suddenly wake up from a good dream and when I fall back asleep, it could continue.

      Some of the best dreams I have ever had were about love. For some reason I always see people I don't want to see in those dreams. I remember this one dream where I got a boyfriend and we were happily dating. The guy took me out on date to some bridge thingy and we were laughing and joking around. We were hugging and he told me to close my eyes. All of a sudden he pulls out a couple necklace. He put it around my neck and he had one as his key chain. Then I decided to take him home to introduce him to my sister. She was really shocked about the guy I was dating. I couldn't see the boys face until it was nearly time for me to wake up. And the boy turned out to be...a guy I used to have a crush on...yeah...it was awkward and weird. I couldn't concentrate on my school work that day.

      A bad dream I had was when I dreamed about raining animals. There were all kinds of animals falling from the sky. There were animals like dogs, cats, pigeons, crickets, frogs and lizards. When the animals hit the ground blood spilled everywhere. It was like a cow slaughter house. Then the scene changed to a bloody room and where I was hand cuffed. Some people kidnapped me and asked my family for money or else they said they'd kill me. I was so scared I told myself to wake up but I couldn't. The kidnappers killed a little girl in front of me to show me my "fate" if my parents didn't pay the money. Luckily my dad woke me up. Thank goodness for that.

      So this is about it...I really like talking about my dreams because this shows how the human mind can be a mysterious thing. You can't control what you dream about but I wish we could so I can dream about being rescued from a fire-breathing dragon by my knight in shining armor. Ahhhh...that'd be the day...

How I Spent My Valentines Day...

      February 14, Valentines Day. This is the day where couples exchange cards, letters, flowers or presents and tell each other how lucky they are to have one another in their lives. But in my opinion, Valentines Day is also a day where single people feel lonely because they have nobody to spend it with. This year on Valentines Day, I didn't feel lonely. The reason is...i have a Valentine...actually I had 2...and those special people are...MY FRIENDS!!! I am so happy they gave me chocolates since they know I don't have a boyfriend and they didn't want me to feel lonely. Thank You Guys!!! Also since they gave me candy, I gave some back to them. 

      How I Spent My Valentines Day:

Today I woke up extra early to get to school early so I wouldn't have to see couple kissing and hugging each other in front of my school. But when I got to school, I was really surprised, there were no couples kissing and hugging in front of the school. So I thought maybe it was too cold to do those things. Anyway, when I went inside I saw dozens of balloons floating around. OK...so I didn't see couples acting lovey dovey but there were a lot of giving flowers to each other. There was this person that got a gigantic teddy bear and a bouquet of flowers. It looked really nice but then again how was she going to carry that home???

      Then towards the end of the day, during my second to last period class, which was aerobics, a lot of people were absent. My teacher said that people would rather be absent to spend time with their boyfriends then come to school. Then she said we shouldn't do that because you never know if one day he will leave you for someone else. That was the best thing she said since the beginning of the semester.

      Finally it was time to go home. When I got on the bus and while going home some dude comes up to me and says "Hey, my friend over there wants you to be his Valentine." First of all, I don't even know you. And second of all, well there isn't a second of all but...I don't think there needs to be one. Then I say "No thanks...I'm good." Guys can be so annoying. So on the way to school, there were no couples making out but on the way home, I saw a lot of people holding hands and doing their thing. I am not lying when I say this: On every block, while I was walking home, there were a least 5 couples. I got so annoyed when I walk closer to them because they should really do their thing in private. 

      That was my Valentines Day...It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. So I am actually happy for once on Valentines Day.