STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

      OMG!!! I can't stand this anymore!!! Every frickin' time I use the computer at night and my sister goes and acts all sad and locks her self in a room to watch TV, my mom has to blame me for not sharing the computer with my sister. When I tell her that my sister has been playing all day, my mom always defends her and says that I am being selfish for not sharing. I AM BEING SELFISH FOR NOT SHARING??? YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!

     I think that my mom showing favoritism to my sister. I tell her my sister has been playing since 12:30 in the afternoon to 7:30 at night, but she doesn't care. Apparently she can't stand seeing my sister so sad and lonely going off into the room to watch TV alone. Then I ask her, how come every time my sister plays and I go off into the room to watch TV, she doesn't tell my sister to share the computer with me. And this is her reply, "I've NEVER seen you go off into the room to watch TV alone when your sister is using the computer." I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE WILL LIE TO GET ME TO SHARE THE COMPUTER. Clearly she doesn't pay attention to my actions, but only to the actions of my little sister.  That pisses me off so much!!!

      So after that we start arguing and she says something that I REALLY REALLY REALLY hate. My mom says she was just asking a simple question and she asked why do I have to overreact to a simple situation. OH...I AM OVERREACTING??? REALLY??? OVERREACTING??? I DON'T THINK SO!!! Well, maybe I am overreacting because she always takes my sisters side in EVERY argument. I can't stand the fact that just to make my sister happy, I am suppose to let her have everything she wants. 
      The most upsetting thing about this is that I can't even enjoy playing anymore because my mom made me feel so guilty about it. Should I even feel guilty??? I don't know...but I feel that way. I don't know what to do...WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE THIS FEELING GO AWAY??? I wonder if my sister ever feels guilty for no sharing the computer with me. NOPE... I don't think she knows what feeling guilty is like.
     Stupid mom always trying to make my sister happy. I can't enjoy my life with her around. Any way that is all for now...I can't even process how my mom can do this to me. Just because she wasn't home to witness my sister playing the computer, that doesn't mean she didn't use it. I AM SOOOOO MAD!!!! STUPID!!!

My Top 10 Manga

      Hello People!!! My blog today will me about the my favorite top 10 manga. I love to read manga. When ever I have spare time, I would go to the library to borrow some manga to read. The reason I like to read manga is because the art is really awesome. I envy people who draw the characters in the books. They are so nice...I wish I could draw that well...I can only draw stick figures...Also the story line is good. I really enjoy reading romance (love triangles, forbidden love), supernatural, sci fi, and comedy. Anyway enough about that stuff, time to write down my favorite top 10 manga:
1. Vampire Knight
2. Kamisama Hajimemashite a.k.a Kamisama Kiss

3. Ghost Hunter

4. Otomen

5. Honey Hunt

6. Library Wars

7. Kaichou wa Maid-sama (The Student Council President is a Maid)

8. Special A (S.A)

9. Beauty Pop

10. Twin Spica

(BTW the order of these manga are not in order from favorite to least favorite.)
P.S. I strongly recommend watching the anime for these manga after you read them!!!

Watching TV with Dad

      Today, my dad had a day off from work. So my dad and I spent the whole day watching TV together. It was kind of weird because we didn't watch any shows that we like. We watched whatever was on TV at that time. For some reason, when we watch TV together, we always laugh at things that are suppose to be serious.
      For example, there was this show on with some guy playing the piano. The guy playing the piano had this expression on his face. It was suppose to be a serious expression but my dad and I laughed at his face through the whole song. The way he moved his hands over the piano keys was so hilarious. His fingers looked like they were going to fly off his hands. Also the tempo changed like every 30 seconds. So as the guy on TV was playing the piano and the tempo changes, his head starts to fly back and forth. HAHAHA!!! I was laughing so hard at that, I had to use the bathroom afterwards.
      The TV show my dad and I watched with the piano guy had judges to critic his style of playing. When the judges were explaining that the emotion on his face and hands were exactly what the music piece was trying to portray, I rolled on the floor laughing. At the same time my dad almost busted out in tears because he laughed so hard. 
      Maybe we just don't understand music and the emotion put into so we thought to was really funny. Today was a super fun day because I laughed so much. I don't think I've ever laughed so much in my life. Well, maybe except the time I ate too many sweets during a party and started laughing at random things. Anyway, that is my Saturday story. I hope you guys enjoyed reading it as much I enjoyed writing/typing it.

Messages to some people:
Vanessa: Please tell Victor that I DON'T WANT A BOYFRIEND!!! so he can stop bugging me about it.
Victor: I DON'T WANT A BOYFRIEND!!!

The Place That We Once Went

      Every time I pass the place that you and I once went, I think back to the good times we spent together. Those memories wash over me like the ocean's waves washes up on the beach everyday. When I remember that we laughed, played and argued there, I want those moments to happen again. I really miss what we used to do. Even though we don't see each other that often anymore, I really want to know how you are doing and how your life is going. I want to spend some time together so we can tell each other about the things that happened during the few months we haven't talked. 

      Sometimes when I pass that place, I feel sad. A lot of times, I try and avoid the place so I don't feel sad every time I pass it. In my heart, I always think " What can I do to make this sadness go away?". I don't want to feel that feeling. It is really hard to hold back these feelings. But that is life. So I am going to suck it up and move on. I think it is okay to feel sad sometimes. It is part of bring human.

Life in Midwood part 3

Here we go again. This is going to be another blog about my life in Midwood. Not so much has changed about my view in Midwood. But my feelings towards the teachers and the homework they give keeps becoming more negative. Also, I got my first report and my grades are actually pretty good, even in the classes I don't like. The first marking period in  Midwood is letter grades. So, not wasting anymore of your precious time here we go again:

1. Living Environment Teacher: My living environment teacher is actually one of my favorites. I have him third period which is considered my first period if I don't have lab. He is  one of those teachers you don't mind having in the morning. I really enjoy being in his class and he makes my morning awesome. He usually starts class with random talking about what he did the night before. When he starts teaching, he gives examples that the class can really connect to. In this class, I got an E.

2. Music Teacher: My music teacher is not really one of the ones I like. In her class, I usually fall asleep. The chairs are kinda of like how they arrange them in auditoriums so it's kinda hard to sleep but I manage to find a way. For example, I put a notebook over my head and doze off into dream world. And in this music class, I have to sing. My voice is not the best in the morning. In this class, I got an E.

3. Geometry Teacher: Geometry is not my favorite subject in math, I prefer Algebra. My thoughts in this class is that the teacher is fine and he doesn't give a lot of homework. I like that. But GEOMETRY IS SO BORING!!! I don't like shapes, they give me a huge headache. For you people who don't know, I have issues with my drawing being perfect. If the line is not straight or the corners don't meet at a nice point, I have to start over again. But besides that I really like the class and the teacher. In this class, I go a G.

4. Global Teacher: This teacher is crazy!!! I don't mean like he is mean or gives me a lot of homework or he yells at the class, I mean he is crazy like he likes to scare children. He said he was going to tell us a scary story on Halloween. I HATE SCARY STORIES/MOVIE!!! I will have nightmare for about 1 month if I watch a scary movie. Except for when I watched Paranormal Activity 3, that wasn't really scary. My global teacher showed the class scenes from scary movies. After that, I was trembling the whole day. I had 3 hours of school left and the whole day I was shaking. But putting that aside, I really like this teacher because he doesn't give homework at all and he is hilarious. In this class, I got an E.

5.English Teacher: My English teacher is okay. She is nice and I enjoy sitting in her class and listening to her talk about books we are going to read and other stuff. But I don't really approve of the books she chose In this class I go an E.

6. Spanish: My Spanish teacher is probably the best one I've had in ages. I really like go to her class. But the sad thing is that time passes too quickly. That is how much I like that class. This is probably my favorite class in the whole day. I always look forward to this class. In this class I got an E.

7. Health: Last but not least is my Health class. I really really really dislike this class. The teacher I have is so unorganized. He jumps from lesson to lesson. For example, one day we are talking about nutrition and you would expect the next day to be about the same thing. But NOOOO!!! The next day the teacher decides to talk about eating disorders and the next day back to nutrition and the next day the HIV/AIDS. I AM SO CONFUSED. In this class, I got a G.

Finally, I am done talking about my high school life...or am I???

Actually, I have one more thing I don't understand? HOW DO YOU START DATING IN 6TH GRADE??? There are a bunch of people in all my classes that have a boyfriend. When they tell me that, I say your parents let you have a boyfriend? If my parents knew I was dating in middle school/high school they would first make me dump him, ground me for the rest of my life and they wouldn't allow me to go anywhere except school and they would have to pick up and drop me off at school everyday until I graduate. Well, maybe I exaggerated a little bit. But in all seriousness, why do people have a boyfriend already? There was this couple in the hallways that were making out. It makes me feel so lonely and I envy those people who have boyfriends. I AM SO JEALOUS!!! 

~Just Joking!!!!

And that is my life in Midwood part 3.

My Columbus Day and Others.

So, today is Columbus Day and school is CLOSED!!! I am having a wonderful day off from school. Today, I watched 14 episodes of Drake & Josh, 5 episodes of Phineas and Ferb, 7 episodes of Wizards of Waverly Place, and 10 episodes of Spongebob Square pants. Yes, I REALLY have no life. Spending one day off from school to watch kid TV shows isn't exactly the wisest thing to do but I did it. 
Anyway back to the reason why I am writing this blog. When my dad got home from work, he handed me a letter and when I opened it to read, it said that I've been nominated to attend the National Youth Leadership Forum on Law and Crime Scene Investigation to be held this summer 2013 in Washington D.C. I am so confused right now with a lot of mixed emotions. Some of the questions that are going through my head are:
-How did this happen?
-Why me?
-Did anyone else I know receive a letter like that?
-What am I going to do?
-What the hell am I suppose to do now?
There you have it. I am still trying to process this information. It is a lot to take in. The letter said I was selected from some of the highest-achieving students in the nation. OMG!!! I really don't know what to do right now. I am planning on taking it to my guidance counselor when I return to school tomorrow. So, if anyone in high school right now, reading my blog and received a letter about what I just wrote please leave a comment. Or if anyone reading this received a letter about this before also leave a comment because I am really confused.

Life in Midwood Part 2

This blog with be about my feelings towards Midwood after a month of going to school there. I officially declare that life in Midwood has gone from good to extremely bad and exhausting!!! Some of you may have read the first part of my blog about Midwood. Well now I've changed my mind completely. This is why:
#1-Getting to school
     Getting up at 7 am when you slept at 12 am can be really exhausting. I have been doing that since school started and I get so tired I fall asleep in class. Literally, I would take my notebook, put it on the desk standing up and fall asleep. I have done that in at least 3 of my classes. To make things worse, sometimes when I have to wake up at 5 am for lab. I need 1200 minutes of lab in order to take the Living Environment Regents in June. So once every two weeks, I have to wake up before the sun even comes out and get ready fro school .It it very cold when it's 5 am. Even though lab starts at 7:15 am, I have to wake up at least an hour and a half earlier if I want to make it there on time. If your late to lab, they will deduct points and if it past 7:30 and your not there, they don't let you in. For the Fall semester, I have 6 labs and the Spring semester I think I am going to have 7 labs.
#2- Homework
     I have been getting a lot of homework lately. At the beginning of the year, I rarely had anything to do but now, but now, it is like a mountain of homework. I have to stay up until 11:00 pm to finish it. I start my homework at 5:00 pm because that is when I get home from school . Sometime if I am lucky, I get home at 4: 30 pm, but that is rare. When I get home I have to alternate from doing my homework to helping my sister with hers. Then when she is done with her homework, she goes to the room and blast some k-pop and that is extremely annoying. I an not a big fan of K-POP, so when my sister decides to not only blast the music but also sing along and dance, I can feel the blood coming out of my ears and eyes. It is really distracting. 
#3- Teachers
     Remember how I wrote that I was satisfied with all my teachers, well I am bipolar so my feelings about them change all the time. For now, here are the feeling for my teachers:
Living Environment- My teacher is awesome. He is extremely cool and makes jokes out of everything he teacher.
Music- The teacher is okay. I don't really like her yet because we haven't actually started singing. For the past month, we learned about staff and sight reading music. I already know how to do all that stuff.
Math(Geometry)- My teacher is still awesome. He really has a thing for sports because every Friday he tells us to watch the Giants game on Sunday.
Global- Right now there is a student teacher teaching us and she gives a lot of notes. I hate copying notes. I sit in the back of the room and she has so much notes that she tries to fit them all on one slide and the print is extremely small. (PS: This is one of the classes I slept in)
English- The teacher is okay but at times it can be fun, especially when we share our own personal experiences with something.
Spanish- My Spanish teacher is the most awesome. She is really nice and kind. I love going to her class everyday because her class is the only one I am willing to learn in.
Health- This is my last period class and I am always sleepy. I can never sleep though cause I sit near the window and a bus passes by every few minutes. The teacher is really loud.

That is all I have to say for now. But maybe next month I'll see if anything changed and I''l write about.

PS: I probably made a lot of errors but please forgive me. I typed this blog at 11:30 pm and I was really tired.